Fortune God

The cartoon version of the ‘Fortune God’ mascot came to visit the McD I was in.
He was giving out red packets. Children crowded him. Everyone was smiling, I including which surprised me.
The children opened to find a huge gold-coin shaped chocolate. One of the McD staff braved himself to shake hands with the ‘God’.
He was giggling. Both embarrassed and encouraged by his colleagues. Such joy.
The happiness surrounding me hurt. It hurt because I couldn’t genuinely feel it.
The fear and pain in me unfortunately surmounts it all.