Saturday, July 29, 2006

29 July

Watched 'Lady in the Water'.
Hmm, M.Night Shyamalan never fail me.

You know, I think it's the lowest-budgeted movie he has made.
But still, it's just as impactful and meaningful as his previous movies.
I'm glad I watched it.

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When I think about it, I really don't feel that life is short.
Our memory span is.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

not yet a woman

I bumped into an old friend today.
She looked very different.

After our brief 'hello-s and nice to see u again-s', I marvelled at her, thinking that it was not too long ago we were tossing the netball at each other.

As she walked on, I turned to have one last glance at her.

She has advanced fast into being a WOMAN.

I looked at my own reflection...

Saturday, July 22, 2006


Timing is everything.

I've been longing for it for so long.
And finally when I have it in hand, it doesn't feel like it should.

All I had longed for, was an illusion. I had believed a lie.

Perhaps if I had it the moment I wanted it, and not left it in my 'for later' list. Would it be far more gratifying then?

I won't be eating Ramli burgers for a very long time.


There are things I remember, and there are things I don't remember.

Because I don't know the things that I don't remember, I don't know which facts are more important.

Even if the latter should be more important, I can't do much about it, simply because of ignorance.

I fear more about the facts that I DO remember.
Do I remember them correctly?
Do I put emphasis on the proper areas proportionately?

The fortune teller is right, I think TOO much.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006


I must say, at the moment, SPORTS is the strongest unifying language we have.

I played badminton with Bangladeshis today.

Although we did have minor difficulties in understanding each other, there wasn't any uncommon mistakes that had taken place during our game.

I'm sure they did enjoy the fact that their employer sucked big time with the racket, and they beat him in all games.

A friend told me that certain people are just talented in sports.
They are very inclined to have the agility, instincts and stamina.

It's true. Those Bangladeshis only started playing badminton when they worked here and yet, it was obvious that their position in the court differs from their employment.

I really had a great time.We understood the same jokes and tactics.. despite being so different..Amazing what sports can do, eh?

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Malu lar

I had a customer who wore this cool shirt with this message,

"No, thanks. I rather masturbate."

I couldn't believe my good fortune when this exact same customer approached me for assistance. I had to control my composure the whole time.

Monday, July 17, 2006


Just came back from a badminton game.
It's really great to have known so many absolute strangers who are now my friends/acquaintances.
I don't know which category to put them under.
We're not close because all we do is just hit the shuttle to each other over the net and yet at the same time they have given me so much joy.

Although we live in the same materialistically-demanding world, they have many times helped me mentally-escape from the 'real' world for the precious few minutes of game.

During those few minutes, everyone is equal.
Only your badminton skill determines who YOU are.

As simple as it sounds, I also see the naked truth about myself.
I can't ignore my flaws in the game, both technical and emotional.

Just as how I hope to improve my badminton skill,
I also hope to better improve myself as a whole.

Saturday, July 15, 2006


I was at The Star's library.
Flipping through the papers in the 80s, I was overwhelmed by the immense feeling of the 'old times'.
Assasinated leaders then still alive, history that were then frightful wars and conflicts, implemented policies then still at deliberating stage; the most entertaining was the advertisements; for movies shown in cinemas.
Ah, back then we had only cinemas, not cineplex.


I was shocked that the security guard thinks that people who work in the bookstore are 'smart' people.
I tried so hard to convince him that he could do the same work .
He thought I was merely trying to be polite.

This conversation reminded me of a previous one I had with a lady who wanted to take a 9-5 job in order to spend more time with her children but is unsure about paper work. No matter how simple.

You should have listened to my motivational speech.
Although it was sincere, upon self reflection, I can't help but feel that I was hipocritical.

I was trying to advise people things I don't even dare apply to myself.

Indeed, something to ponder.

Friday, July 07, 2006

Moleskin for your Thoughts

Moleskin notebooks are well known for their quality and PRICE that er... somewhat 'assures' you its service to you.

I always ask the WHY the buyers are so willing to spend such money.
And the answers are all the same.

"It's for my writing. My own stuff. Not any just other sort of scribblings."

Fair enough. I must agree. After all, didn't I persuaded AhKit to value his drawings?

But my mind was challenged by another question,
"Are our documentation of our thoughts valued based on the exterior condition? What if you had this fantastic idea or phrase that came to mind but your MOLESKIN notebook was too fancy to be available for your disposal at that magic moment, what happens then? What do you do? Where do you write it down; knowing well that if you lose that moment, you wouldn't be able to remember"
Have you ever feared that our over-reliance on the exterior assurance, might overshadow the depths of the inner subtance?

Wow.... suddenly so deep...
I should have this printed on my T-shirts!
Great excuse for bad fashion sense!! HAhahaH!!

Thursday, July 06, 2006


Have you ever felt like lyrics of certain songs were meant FOR YOU, or certain dialogues from movies were MEANT FOR YOU, or certain phrases or pictures WERE MEANT FOR YOU?

You are who you are for a reason.
You're part of an intricate plan.
You're a precious and perfect unique design....
You look like you do for a reason.
Our God makes no mistake....
You're just what he wanted to make.

The parents you had were the ones he chose.
And no matter how you may feel.
They were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,....

No, that trauma you faced was not easy,
And God wept that it hurt you so,
But it was allowed to shape your heart
So that into his likeness you'd grow.
..............Russell Kelfer

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

I no MC

I'm ILL.
Why didn't the doc give me MC, I don't know...


Still have to go to work tomorrow.

You know those moments where you just want to die?

I feel you....

Monday, July 03, 2006


I do very much agree that a person's character is best judged based on how they treat their inferiors.

Now, I come to a higher stage of character judgement which is,
  • under what circumstances do you label others as your inferior?

Oh come on, don't you even dare to pretend 'holier than thou'.

Each one of us do carry a psychological measuring tape.

I openly admit that I do.

But I constantly double check its validity and accuracy.

I don't trust it.

Truths & Jokes

I saw an ex-colleague.
She was once a very gung-ho journalist.
Yes. - WAS.

Another victim burnt out due to the establishment.

*Chuckle* ... The word establishment does sound fancy, doesn't it?

So does the word, 'management'.

The superiors in my work place are addressed as the , yes THE -management.

The word 'management' gives the impression that they actually know what they're doing.


No wonder Scott Adam's Dilbert sells so well.

The best humor are based on hard core truths.