Just this

Of course I DID fantasize about us being together.
Could you blame me?

I even thought of pursuing you despite it all. Disregard all the Asian lady propriety and go for it.

I did. Coz I didn't want to look back and wonder, "What if..."

Suddenly, I was reminded of my dark past.
I have no 'qualification' to pursue you.

I have none to pursue such bliss.

I can only afford to wonder, "what if..."

Perhaps.. there is no better ending.

But this.