I have mental illness. Mind clarity is rare, too briefly and often too late. Old friends and acquaintances would look away when they see me. Yup, that unpopular. Of course, I get angry and hurt but deep down, I know I’d do the same too, if I saw 'me'. That’s the icy cold papercut truth. The illness cuts even deeper. I thank you for your readership. Your presence here makes me feel less alone. This blog helps me remember my true worth as a person, and how my own mind threatens it.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
I have serious insecurity issues. I question myself all the time. I ask myself these questions much too often. "Why did I do/say that?" "Why can't I be more normal?" "Why can't I just blend in?" "Why can't I just relax?"
Why can't I just relax too? My insecurity issues are pretty terrible too. I question myself thousands of times. Check, recheck things. Afraid to make decisions. I have a lot of fear in me of making mistakes, since my past was full of mistakes.
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Why can't I just relax too? My insecurity issues are pretty terrible too. I question myself thousands of times. Check, recheck things. Afraid to make decisions. I have a lot of fear in me of making mistakes, since my past was full of mistakes.
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