WHAT? He is a graphic designer?
Hell... NO.....
Damn.
What a shame, coz I thought he's nice.
I have mental illness. Mind clarity is rare, too briefly and often too late. Old friends and acquaintances would look away when they see me. Yup, that unpopular. Of course, I get angry and hurt but deep down, I know I’d do the same too, if I saw 'me'. That’s the icy cold papercut truth. The illness cuts even deeper. I thank you for your readership. Your presence here makes me feel less alone. This blog helps me remember my true worth as a person, and how my own mind threatens it.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Was in ktm, (those who take ktm in KlangValley would know it's a nightmare).
Pushed to the side, once again to the advantage of the male commuters (I admit, some of whom are UNwilling as well)
Then, I noticed two African passengers... one of whom were playing his Mp3 music on speaker and he was 'moving' along with the rhythm.
He played a couple of songs, but his favourite was obviously the one back in his homeland.
I regret to say, I don't know what genre to place that piece of song.
Although I don't understand a word, it DOES sound nice.
Plus, the oblivious, unperturbed, don't-give-a-damn-what-you-think African brother is doing a great job 'moving' 'swaying' very APPRECIATIVELY to the song....
what is there NOT to like?
Pushed to the side, once again to the advantage of the male commuters (I admit, some of whom are UNwilling as well)
Then, I noticed two African passengers... one of whom were playing his Mp3 music on speaker and he was 'moving' along with the rhythm.
He played a couple of songs, but his favourite was obviously the one back in his homeland.
I regret to say, I don't know what genre to place that piece of song.
Although I don't understand a word, it DOES sound nice.
Plus, the oblivious, unperturbed, don't-give-a-damn-what-you-think African brother is doing a great job 'moving' 'swaying' very APPRECIATIVELY to the song....
what is there NOT to like?
Friday, June 27, 2008
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Edited from http://lebigeasy.blogspot.com/2008/06/choice-or-chance.html
Choice or Chance
When you meet someone
you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.
When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right
place at the right time, that's chance.
The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take
that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the
next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and
contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete
relationship or just a fling.
If you decide to love a person, even with his or her faults,
-that's not a chance. That's choice.
When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice.
Even if you know there are many
people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your
mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same,
that's choice.
"Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen."
We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.
We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love,
BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly.
~Author Unknown~
Choice or Chance
When you meet someone
you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.
When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right
place at the right time, that's chance.
The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take
that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the
next level? That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and
contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete
relationship or just a fling.
If you decide to love a person, even with his or her faults,
-that's not a chance. That's choice.
When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice.
Even if you know there are many
people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your
mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same,
that's choice.
"Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen."
We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.
We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love,
BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly.
~Author Unknown~
Sunday, June 22, 2008
So many times, memories of us, I ponder
Was there ever a time we thought of each other?
Would it be the same reflection?
Or simply a composed deception?
Even for the briefest moment,
If ever you were truly mine
Was it just another common,
That will soon pass in time?
How could something so harmless,
Caused US to end so careless?
I can’t seem to let it go,
And yet I’m forced to say no.
How could I have done it better?
Foolish, as it no longer matter.
Can you believe I still stare?
Can you believe I still care?
Should ever our paths meet,
I wish to see a lady so sweet,
In your arms, laughing together,
You, being blissfully happier.
Friday, June 20, 2008
"If you say yes, only we do it. If you don't want to, we don't. Simple as that. I never like to force."
- I do want, but...it's just...
"It's your first time?"
I looked down, blushed and nodded. I couldn't hide the shyness from him.
"Not now then when?"
He was getting impatient. I could understand his frustration. But I couldn't explain myself. Words escaped me.
"What do you want from me? Why are you here?"
-I just want to let you know that I'm ... still interested.
I noticed his devilish curled lips.
"Look, if you have doubts in me, you can always go to someone else. I always have someone else too."
-No,no. It's not you. It's me... I have doubt with myself...
"Then, I can't help you. Why don't you go watch a movie instead? I have other things better to do, ok?"
He raised his hands in the air as a sign of retreat from the conversation.
I could only nod like a child.
I walked away feeling really confused as to how I had upset him.
Recollecting the entire dialogue above, I smiled to myself.
It's too amusing. I must write about it.
The above dialogue was between myself and a tattooist.
- I do want, but...it's just...
"It's your first time?"
I looked down, blushed and nodded. I couldn't hide the shyness from him.
"Not now then when?"
He was getting impatient. I could understand his frustration. But I couldn't explain myself. Words escaped me.
"What do you want from me? Why are you here?"
-I just want to let you know that I'm ... still interested.
I noticed his devilish curled lips.
"Look, if you have doubts in me, you can always go to someone else. I always have someone else too."
-No,no. It's not you. It's me... I have doubt with myself...
"Then, I can't help you. Why don't you go watch a movie instead? I have other things better to do, ok?"
He raised his hands in the air as a sign of retreat from the conversation.
I could only nod like a child.
I walked away feeling really confused as to how I had upset him.
Recollecting the entire dialogue above, I smiled to myself.
It's too amusing. I must write about it.
The above dialogue was between myself and a tattooist.
Friday, June 13, 2008
You lack confidence in yourself in certain times.
You could be seriously disappointed by rash ventures.
Your sedentary habits risk ruining your health.
You tend to put the people you love on a pedestal and naturally you don't expect them ever to step down.
You might have an accident but there should be no serious consequences.
Be ver careful: you could be caught off guard by misfortune.
-- fortune telling ticket, 12/6/08
You could be seriously disappointed by rash ventures.
Your sedentary habits risk ruining your health.
You tend to put the people you love on a pedestal and naturally you don't expect them ever to step down.
You might have an accident but there should be no serious consequences.
Be ver careful: you could be caught off guard by misfortune.
-- fortune telling ticket, 12/6/08
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Sunday, June 08, 2008
I was walking past the cineplex.
A little toddler no more than 2 years caught the sight of this poster.
He laughed.
He laughed like the 'tickle me Elmo'.
His reaction was so amusing that his older siblings had to look what caught his attention.
They too find the poster amusing, though not half as amusing as their brother's laughter.
The parents hurried over to see what the commotion was about.
They too, were tickled.
I thought, WOW.
The graphic designer of this poster deserves an award.
Wait, perhaps he is already rewarded.
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Oh God, please let this be my closure. How long more?
###
Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
After all...
After all...
## everytime,britney spears
###
Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
After all...
After all...
## everytime,britney spears
Friday, June 06, 2008
Thursday, June 05, 2008
I was seated with PoEticImMortal (PI). It's raining cats and dogs.
Lightning and thunder were merciless.
I got very excited at the sight of nature's fiercest greeting.
"Look Look!" Pointing at the sky and scrabbling for PI's camera.
PI shuddered.
"Why? Do you know that some photographers CHASE after storms for photos like this?"
PI explained her worry.
I took time to digest.
She had grounds to worry.
Conclusion?
--- you just never know.......
Lightning and thunder were merciless.
I got very excited at the sight of nature's fiercest greeting.
"Look Look!" Pointing at the sky and scrabbling for PI's camera.
PI shuddered.
"Why? Do you know that some photographers CHASE after storms for photos like this?"
PI explained her worry.
I took time to digest.
She had grounds to worry.
Conclusion?
--- you just never know.......
Sunday, June 01, 2008
I noticed this little kid who seems to be very withdrawn and painfully shy.
I didn't like the way the other adults were treating him.
That's why I made it a point to 'warm up' to him.
Later, he walked my direction and SMILED.
W-O-W.
During break I asked, "Would you like my piece of cake?"
He looked at me cheekily and said, "No. I want a piece with cherry on top."
That was the longest answer that I've heard from him all day.
I didn't like the way the other adults were treating him.
That's why I made it a point to 'warm up' to him.
Later, he walked my direction and SMILED.
W-O-W.
During break I asked, "Would you like my piece of cake?"
He looked at me cheekily and said, "No. I want a piece with cherry on top."
That was the longest answer that I've heard from him all day.
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