I'm typing this at my work desk.
I almost didn't come to work today.
Seriously.

Today is Thursday.
I have been struggling every morning since Monday.
How am I going to make this work for me?
I skipped two days of gym this week because I was just too (emotionally?) tired after work.

I just don't see a way out of this.
I'm just so tired of this.

Meds, doctors, spirituality, exercise, friends, therapy, what have I not tried?
I'm so tired of myself.
The self-sabotaging thought that the "The world would be better off without me" keeps playing.
The fight has been going on too long.
I'm tired.