...in my Broken Pieces of Clarity....
I have mental illness. Mind clarity is rare, too briefly and often too late. Old friends and acquaintances would look away when they see me. Yup, that unpopular. Of course, I get angry and hurt but deep down, I know I’d do the same too, if I saw 'me'. That’s the icy cold papercut truth. The illness cuts even deeper. I thank you for your readership. Your presence here makes me feel less alone. This blog helps me remember my true worth as a person, and how my own mind threatens it.
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Wednesday, October 07, 2020
These Banana Leaves-Shoots just wouldn't die.
Friday, September 18, 2020
"Wow, you made this? It looks like a decorative cake !", I commented, as I stared, impressed with the kids' work.
As I continued with my work minutes later, I noticed 2 young girls hovering beside me.
I turned to see this.
-by Cheri J.Meiners
Saturday, September 12, 2020
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Saturday, August 22, 2020
The doctor diagnosed that he hasn't got much time left, but KoMunYoung was adamant not to meet him.
In the past, I used to interpret scenes like these that the protagonist is "resentful, unforgiving, still holding on to anger, hate" and all those simplistic, compartmentalizing, mainstream emotional words.
But having gone through so much.
I understand better now.
Sometimes people don't retrace their steps, or even just to turn their head around to look back, maybe simply due to fear and nothing else.
Fear of what they may feel,
It's self-preservation
It's survival instincts.
Saturday, August 08, 2020
at the end of the episode Cycle Around Japan,
James Hobbs the cyclist host said, "...the future is full of opportunities and potential.
And the only limit to our potential is the limit of our own imagination.
One thing Johan said that struck me like an arrow through the heart was, “It could have been me.”
But then we never know. We always assume that things are okay because people with personal problems or depression hardly ever reveal much to others.
Sanjiv, also a talented musician, was retrenched from his piloting job a few months ago but those close to him didn’t realise the extent of his stress.
Johan, while friendly with everyone, is not generous with words when describing and assessing people. But in Sanjiv, he said he has lost a wonderful friend. That says a lot about the great guy Sanjiv was.
Thursday, August 06, 2020
It's ok to not be ok - Korean Drama
Monday, August 03, 2020
走到这里,有些事是需要接受的,但是那心态并非所谓的“认命”。深层了解自己,会更坚决继续改变现状。而接受自己是坦然坚毅奋斗。....
...在时辰到的那一刻,我们都能骄傲地告诉自己——不枉此行!
Zǒu dào zhèlǐ, yǒuxiē shì shì xūyào jiēshòu de, dànshì nà xīntài bìngfēi suǒwèi de “rènmìng”. Shēncéng liǎojiě zìjǐ, huì gèng jiānjué jìxù gǎibiàn xiànzhuàng. Ér jiēshòu zìjǐ shì tǎnrán jiānyì fèndòu.Zài shíchén dào dì nà yīkè, wǒmen dōu néng jiāo'ào de gàosù zìjǐ——bù wǎng cǐ xíng!
Now, in this part of the journey, we have to accept some deficiencies in our lives.
Accepting but not passively submitting to life's cruel fate.
But live with resolute vitality.
坦然坚毅奋斗tǎnrán jiānyì fèndòu, caught my attention. Especially 毅 perseverance. I am reminded of the Famous Hong Kong's geomancy expert's advice in riding out one's fate.
When my moment comes, I would be contented if the Power above says, "You did well."