한숨 hansum “Breathe” by Lee Hi
Take a deep breath
Until both sides of your heart get numb
Until it hurts a little
Let out your breath even more
Until you feel
Like there’s nothing left inside
It’s alright if you run out of breath
No one will blame you
It’s okay to make mistakes sometimes
Because anyone can do so
Although comforting by saying it’s alright
Are just words

[Chorus]
Someone’s breath. That heavy breath
How can I see through that?
Though I can’t understand your breath
It’s alright I’ll hold you

[Verse 2]
It’s alright if you run out of breath
No one will blame you
It’s okay to make mistakes sometimes
Because anyone can do so
Although comforting by saying it’s alright
Are just words

[Verse 3]

Even if others think your sigh

Takes out energy and strength

I already know

That you had a day that’s hard enough

To let out even a small sigh

Now don’t think of anything else

Let out a deep sigh

Just let it out like that

[Outro]

Someone’s breath. That heavy breath

How can I see through that?

Though I can’t understand your breath

It’s alright I’ll hold you

You really did a good job

Artist: Jonghyun (김종현 ) Song: 하루의 끝 (End of a Day)

Hold out your hand, wrap it around my neck

A little below, massage my shoulders

At the end of a tiring day

Even if the sun has already come up

I’m finally closing my eyes

 

I close the door to my day later than others

Playfully tickle my earlobe

Because even though we’ve been in different worlds all day

We always end the day together

 

Your small shoulders, your small hands

Become my cozy blanket at the end of a tiring day

You did a good job today, you worked so hard

I hope my shoulders and my thick hands

Will become cozy comfort

For the end of your tiring day as well

I want to naturally sync my breathing with yours

 

Like water in a bathtub that wraps around you

With no space left

I wanna warmly hold you without any space left

At the end of my day, filled with awkward mistakes

You, my prize, are waiting for me

 

I can’t cry all I want or even laugh all I want

At the end of a tiring day but still, if I’m next to you

Like a child, I can whine and then laugh

Till I run out of breath

I’m not used to seeing myself like this

 

You did a good job today, you worked so hard

You are my prize

Taken from https://aramajapan.com/news
Haruma Miura was born in Ibaraki in 1990. His mother got divorced when he was a baby, which is why his family name “Miura” is her mother’s last name. His debut was at 7 as an extra on NHK’s famous morning drama “AGRI”. In 2006, acted as the boyfriend of the female hero on “14-Year-old Mother”, which made him rise to popularity. In 2007, the romantic love movie “Koizora” made him win the Japan Academy Prize for Best Rookie. “Eternal Zero” and the Broadway musical “Kinky Boots” for his role as a drag queen made him a solid star with great success in the entertainment world. He was eager to learn English and studied in England for three months in 2017. According to some source, he wanted to stay longer but his agency Amuse opposed, so Haruma needed to come back immediately afterwards.

During the COVID-19’s emergency declaration, he shared a lot of information about his cooking on social network sites.

On July 18, 2020, he didn’t appear at the shooting site of his latest drama, which was set to premiere in September. His last appearance was at the shooting site on the previous day, and he reportedly had chatted and shared laughs with his costars. His attitude was the same as usual. There was no response from him when they tried to contact him. The door was closed. When his manager and the apartment manager opened the door, he was found hanging in his closet. Beside him was a notebook where he had written his wish to die. 

update*27/9/2020 - On Sunday, September 27, Japan lost another of its most prominent actresses. Yuko Takeuchi, star of Ring, Strawberry Night and most recently, the Hulu series Miss Sherlock, was found dead this Sunday in her apartment in an apparent suicide. She was 40. 

Born in 1980 in Saitama Prefecture, Takeuchi debuted in 1996 with a TV drama role and has since starred in dozens of TV dramas and films, including NHK’s 1999 morning series “Asuka,” in which she played the leading role. Takeuchi has won multiple awards for her acting, including the Japanese Academy Award for best actress in a leading role for “Yomigaeri” (Resurrection, 2003), “Ima Ai ni Yukimasu” (Be with You, 2004) and “Haru no Yuki” (Snow of Spring, 2005). Recently, she also starred in The Confidence Man JP: The Movie and The Confidence Man JP: Episode of the Princess along co-star Haruma Miura who tragically took his own life in July this year. 

Even a photo taken in Ikea looks like it's straight out of a magazine.

 The home where everyone is.

Collection of happy moments.

I like this photo.

This is a great quote from puttingham.

是的，在这世上，有很多很多人会因为我这问题而离开我。没关系的，真的没有关系。只要有几个人好好爱我就已足够，若没有的话，自己一定要好好爱自己。精神病患者也是有尊严的，不需乞求他人的怜爱而失去了尊严。
Shì de, zài zhè shìshàng, yǒu hěnduō hěnduō rén huì yīnwèi wǒ zhè wèntí ér líkāi wǒ. Méiguānxì de, zhēn de méiyǒu guānxì. Zhǐyào yǒu jǐ gèrén hǎohǎo ài wǒ jiù yǐ zúgòu, ruò méiyǒu dehuà, zìjǐ yīdìng yào hǎohǎo ài zìjǐ. Jīngshénbìng huànzhě yěshì yǒu zūnyán de, bù xū qǐqiú tārén de lián'ài ér shīqùle zūnyán.

Yes, many people in this world will leave me because of my problem. It doesn't matter, it really doesn't matter. As long as there are a few people who love me well, it is enough. If not, you must love yourself well. People with mental illnesses have dignity too and do not need to lose ourself, begging for compassion from others.

by Max

So sorry to see her go.........bye Fira

My dear self, Thank you and goodnight.

謝謝你很努力
Thank you for your efforts
謝謝自己沒放棄
My dear self, Thank you  for not giving up
謝謝你一路堅持到這裡
Thank you for persevering through
太陽依舊會升起
The sun will still rise
希望永遠不滅熄
The flame of hope will always continue
晚安了 親愛的自己
Goodnight, my dear self.

還能大口呼吸，就是幸福的
Every breath is a blessing
還能睜開眼睛，希望就能夠看見的
Hope is always available when we open our eyes,
雖然步伐是小了一點
Your pace may be slow
但我一定會走向前
But you are still moving forward
幸福得更努力一些
Continue with passion

還能夠說感謝，就一直掛嘴邊
Give thanks daily
還能夠有夢想，就要更勇敢的去追
If you can still dream, have the courage to pursue it
我親愛的寶貝，我知道你會累
My dear little one, I know you will tire
生命很困難，但記得要勇敢
Life is hard, but you must be brave

月光依然美麗
The night is still beautiful
好像每一個你
as beautiful as yourself
晚安了親愛的自己
Goodnight my dear self

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