Chan is severely handicapped and has only one usable arm.

Even the usage of this arm is very limited.

We watched a video screening of a day in Chan’s life.

How difficult it was for him to start the day from the moment he wakes up.

Many viewers wept.
I didn’t and couldn't because I felt very ashamed.
I didn’t even have the right to cry.

Now, when the dark thoughts come for their usual rounds in the morning when I wake up, I’d think of him.

I'd picture the daily courage he has to muster to start the day.

I owe it to him and to myself to move quickly to the bathroom and get ready for my tasks of the day.

Never mind how I feel.