Cried myself silly watching this video.

There is still hope in this world.

There's nothing like unconditional kindness and compassion.

‎"There are places in this world that aren't made out of stone. There's something inside... that they can't get to, that they can't touch. That's yours. 'What are you talking about?' "Hope."
"Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies."

-Shawshank Redemption

tumblr pics

"Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise." --
Victor Hugo (Les Miserables)

There was a small fair taking place at the foyer.

Curious me went to find out what's going on - I was very attracted by the 'freebies' on the table.

Turns out, there's a little contest - whoever who manages to blow the biggest balloon wins a bottle of Ribena or a packet of Horlicks ( winner's choice)

No losers, the rest gets other smaller freebies too.

So, I enthusiastically participated.

I was among the 5 others.

My biggest competition was a 6-feet guy.

The results were close.

I won!

It was so fun.

I brought home the balloon, I call it "My fruit of labour"

Yes, people like us NEED to do these things.

wish I had some pics to show.

"Formal qualifications will give you a leg up in life, she says, but to succeed a person needs “EQ, IQ and AQ” – she means emotional, intelligence and adversity quotients. " -Kathleen Tan .

She defines AQ as the ability to roll with the punches and the stamina to turn setbacks into victories.

Went for a live performance at PJLiveArts.
Was very impressed that they have their own bar.

I wispered to my friend, "I feel so CULTURED".

Photo taken from Sharon Bakar's FB tag post.

Estee Lauder --
"Beauty is an attitude. There's no secret. Why are all brides beautiful? Because on their wedding day, they care about how they look. There are no ugly women - only women who don't care or who don't believe they are atttractive."

Was feeling very very LOW.
No mood to work at all .
Went to the Lounge and pressed myself a cup of White Coffee from the auto-machine.
Suddenly, my mood shot up like a Lipton advertisement.
Can really imagine myself dancing with Hugh Jackman.

Bi@tch came again to the counter, and I was even civil to her, bearing this FB quote in mind - **Being nice to someone you hate doesn't mean you're fake. It means you're mature enough to tolerate your hate towards them. **
Nope E., I couldn't possibly give up my good friend Coffee.
Heck, I'll drink cow's pee if it can make me feel this good.

Sigh.
But I do understand and acknowledge all the research findings about caffeine and Bipolar disorder.
Sigh.
How?

After my Penang run last November, I exercised more and had been looking forward to this run. Yippee! I did it.
It felt really good, as expected.

So many many inspiring moments....

Lately, there's this African student who has been creating a lot of fuss at workplace.
Everyone hates her.
Yesterday, things got so bad, I asked the boss to intervene. She even played the 'RACE CARD'- claiming that we're prejudiced against her because she's African.
( I wanted to say that RUDENESS is not a race,Bi@tch - to her face, but swallowed it)
I told her that I'd be very obliged to write a full report of all the incidents that have taken place since my first encounter with her.
Another colleague was very willing too.
She was very surprised that we remembered all the other incidents very well, so she backed down and 'apologised'.
((I had even written a blogpost about it back in -Thursday, December 02, 2010.
Yup, we're all wondering why hasn't this Bi@tch graduated....))
Oh, that's why she backed down when I told her about the report I'd be most obliged to write.
Obviously she can no longer afford any more delay.

Anyway, the whole confrontation really made me very upset, not only at the obnoxious student, but also at the boss for cowering at her threats of complaints.

I was really shaken.

My whole body was shaking, my voice was quivering.

My colleagues were trying their best to comfort me, telling me it's ok.

But last night, I had to take a pill to sleep.

When I woke up this morning, I was still feeling the blues.

She came again today and my colleague just ignored her.
I was silently cheering for my colleague's boldness!
Yup, again she created a fuss - went to the boss to complain, - we were called in ,etc...
But WTF, our positions are too petty to protect anyway.
I told Boss, 'It felt good, it felt like the right thing to do.'
And now I'm much more at peace with myself.

I don't need a pill to sleep tonight.

Therefore, I'm now even MORE sure that it WAS THE RIGHT THING TO DO.

I FB messaged my friend who was very concern about a friend who was showing signs of a breakdown.

Please make sure she gets professional help. If she's denying the seriousness, maybe get a one/two more close/good friends to intervene.
Believe me, due to the stigma, most ppl are only admitted to the ward when things have gotten severely out of hand.
Only then, the patient him/herself and the ppl around them would finally admit the problem.
By then, the instability would have severed to an illness, and it becomes harder for the patient to find him/her own centre point of mental stability.
I think I have told you before how regretful I am for not seeking help MUCH earlier as my symptoms were already showing years before.
Hope you don't mind me blabbering, it would be tragic if you have TWO mental patient friends.
One is already too MANY.

Every night before I sleep, I will always hear a reminder whispered to me, " You're crazy, don't you ever forget that."

Evidently,my mental health status DOES affect my self-esteem.

Then, last night, I watched a reality tv show where this 'crazy' girlfriend was ill-treating the boyfriend. He's this sweet and very oddly submissive guy.

While I was watching, I secretly hope that droves of female viewers would contact him and make him change his mind about that whack job girlfriend of his.

This show reminded me of an earlier conversation I had regarding mental patients.

"At least we admit our problem and sought professional help, unlike the so many others who are still making lives miserable for the people around them. Heck, they might even be responsible for sending people to mental wards due to stressful environment they cause..."

Here’s to the crazy ones. The rebels. The troublemakers. The ones who see things differently. While some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do. Steve Jobs Apple Inc.

Got this from AyulinroThis man is feeding his mother.
This pic sure has the command to halt all the rubbish thoughts in my head and ... just... *exhale*

This is the moment I have always longed for.

The peace and cool air of the night accompanying me while I type. (gosh, it even sounds melodious)

I went out alone, as usual.

It is sad that I enjoy my own company? Or merely narcissistic? Or worst, I'm joining the Norman Bates clan?

I sort of 'talk to myself', not the in third person manner, just... thinking out loud.

I pushed myself to go out, and was very pleased to find that the tiny little departmental store near my home had its own crowd and there were new small businesses set up.

I walked around inhaling the food aroma as much as I can.

It's free, after all...

I was really amusing myself.

Smiled at children.

Absorbing the happy images into my head.

the life I long for

It's not the luxury that I'm after.
It's the simplicity.

I need to de-clutter my life

recent quotes I read

“First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.” -Mahatma Gandhi

Mr. Davies prefers to call it "serenity": a calm recognition that human institutions, like humans themselves, do not live forever. "Serenity is the balance between good and bad, life and death, horrors and pleasures. Life is, as it were, defined by death. If there wasn't death of things, then there wouldn't be any life to celebrate." taken from wsj