We were in the car, driving towards the new neighborhood.
Suddenly, we all saw that a new McD is opening.
Sis said, = McD kiosk has finally reached us.
All three of us went
"Y-E-A-H !!....."
simultaneously.
We are aged 27, 31, 34 respectively.
I have mental illness. Mind clarity is rare, too briefly and often too late. Old friends and acquaintances would look away when they see me. Yup, that unpopular. Of course, I get angry and hurt but deep down, I know I’d do the same too, if I saw 'me'. That’s the icy cold papercut truth. The illness cuts even deeper. I thank you for your readership. Your presence here makes me feel less alone. This blog helps me remember my true worth as a person, and how my own mind threatens it.
Friday, May 23, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
Thursday, May 08, 2008
20 Memos from Your Child
1. Don’t spoil me. I know that I ought not to have all that I ask for.
2. Don’t be afraid to be firm with me. It makes me feel more secure.
3. Don’t let me form bad habits. I have to rely on you to detect them early.
4. Don’t make me feel smaller than I am. It only makes me behave stupidly ‘BIG’.
5. Don’t correct me in front of people if you can help it. I’d notice more if you talk quietly with me in private.
6. Don’t make me feel my mistakes are sins. It upsets my sense of values.
7. Don’t protect me from consequences. Sometimes, I need to learn the painful way.
8. Don’t be too upset when I say ‘I hate you’. It’s your power to thwart me, that I hate.
9. Don’t nag. If you do, I shall have to protect myself by appearing deaf.
10. Don’t forget that I cannot explain myself as well as I should like. This is why I’m not always accurate.
11. Don’t make rash promises. Remember that I feel badly let down when they are broken.
12. Don’t tax my honesty too much. I am easily frightened into telling lies.
13. Don’t be inconsistent. That completely confuses me and makes me lose faith in you.
14. Don’t tell me my fears are silly. They are terribly real, and you can do much to reassure me if you try to understand.
15. Don’t put me off when I ask questions. If you do, I will stop asking and seek my information elsewhere.
16. Don’t ever suggest that you are perfect. It gives me too great a shock.
17. Don’t ever think it’s beneath your dignity to apologize to me. An honest apology makes me feel surprisingly warm towards you.
18. Don’t forget how quickly I am growing up. It must be very difficult to keep pace with me, but please try.
19. Don’t forget I love experimenting. I couldn’t get on without it, so please put up with it.
20. Don’t forget that I can’t thrive without lots of understanding and love, but I don’t need to tell you, do I?
--edited from Dr Teh's clinic, D'sara Utama
1. Don’t spoil me. I know that I ought not to have all that I ask for.
2. Don’t be afraid to be firm with me. It makes me feel more secure.
3. Don’t let me form bad habits. I have to rely on you to detect them early.
4. Don’t make me feel smaller than I am. It only makes me behave stupidly ‘BIG’.
5. Don’t correct me in front of people if you can help it. I’d notice more if you talk quietly with me in private.
6. Don’t make me feel my mistakes are sins. It upsets my sense of values.
7. Don’t protect me from consequences. Sometimes, I need to learn the painful way.
8. Don’t be too upset when I say ‘I hate you’. It’s your power to thwart me, that I hate.
9. Don’t nag. If you do, I shall have to protect myself by appearing deaf.
10. Don’t forget that I cannot explain myself as well as I should like. This is why I’m not always accurate.
11. Don’t make rash promises. Remember that I feel badly let down when they are broken.
12. Don’t tax my honesty too much. I am easily frightened into telling lies.
13. Don’t be inconsistent. That completely confuses me and makes me lose faith in you.
14. Don’t tell me my fears are silly. They are terribly real, and you can do much to reassure me if you try to understand.
15. Don’t put me off when I ask questions. If you do, I will stop asking and seek my information elsewhere.
16. Don’t ever suggest that you are perfect. It gives me too great a shock.
17. Don’t ever think it’s beneath your dignity to apologize to me. An honest apology makes me feel surprisingly warm towards you.
18. Don’t forget how quickly I am growing up. It must be very difficult to keep pace with me, but please try.
19. Don’t forget I love experimenting. I couldn’t get on without it, so please put up with it.
20. Don’t forget that I can’t thrive without lots of understanding and love, but I don’t need to tell you, do I?
--edited from Dr Teh's clinic, D'sara Utama
only GOOD guys get Frustrated with WORK
I contributed this on blog.kailoon.com on Apr27,2008
Kai Loon said something via MSN which got me thinking. He said rarely he gets encouragement on his creative / artistic work. I can understand that frustration completely. But may I just say this.
Friends,
We get frustrated because we THINK.
We get frustrated because we always want IMPROVEMENT
We get frustrated because we RECOGNIZED the need for change.
We get frustrated because we are GOOD in what we do and don’t take crap easily.
We get frustrated because we see OPPORTUNITIES and TALENTS go wasted.
We get frustrated because we CARE.
Frustrated people are all the above.
Aren’t those good qualities?
We are the good guys.
Don’t forget that.
And there are very few of us.
It’s important we stick together.
Then, we stand a chance to ‘win’.
Cheers to FRUSTRATION
Kai Loon said something via MSN which got me thinking. He said rarely he gets encouragement on his creative / artistic work. I can understand that frustration completely. But may I just say this.
Friends,
We get frustrated because we THINK.
We get frustrated because we always want IMPROVEMENT
We get frustrated because we RECOGNIZED the need for change.
We get frustrated because we are GOOD in what we do and don’t take crap easily.
We get frustrated because we see OPPORTUNITIES and TALENTS go wasted.
We get frustrated because we CARE.
Frustrated people are all the above.
Aren’t those good qualities?
We are the good guys.
Don’t forget that.
And there are very few of us.
It’s important we stick together.
Then, we stand a chance to ‘win’.
Cheers to FRUSTRATION
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
I lost my first time 3 nights ago.
My new friend saw that I was upset and decided that I need some serious ‘encouraging’ uplift in my emotions.
I was taken to a place I’ve yearned to be for many years.
Heard how wonderful it is for a very long time.
I was ecstatic that it did not disappoint me.
It was only once. I couldn’t take any more than one try.
It was good enough.
I tasted my first ‘chow tau foo’- smelly tofu, a delicacy made known by HongKong’s most daring cuisine entrepreneurs.
My new friend saw that I was upset and decided that I need some serious ‘encouraging’ uplift in my emotions.
I was taken to a place I’ve yearned to be for many years.
Heard how wonderful it is for a very long time.
I was ecstatic that it did not disappoint me.
It was only once. I couldn’t take any more than one try.
It was good enough.
I tasted my first ‘chow tau foo’- smelly tofu, a delicacy made known by HongKong’s most daring cuisine entrepreneurs.
Saturday, May 03, 2008
The mere surprised sight of you,
Oh… the delirious joy.
The unexpected, merciless slit- my heart, you toy.
I really didn’t see this coming.
Can you blame me for hurting?
So many things going on in mind,
... yet I can't ask.
Is it pride? or acceptance?
How ironic that the first conversation we had, -was about people not being together because of the TIMING issue.
Even so, it’s no consolation.
There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say .. "Leaving On A Jet Plane"
Oh… the delirious joy.
The unexpected, merciless slit- my heart, you toy.
I really didn’t see this coming.
Can you blame me for hurting?
So many things going on in mind,
... yet I can't ask.
Is it pride? or acceptance?
How ironic that the first conversation we had, -was about people not being together because of the TIMING issue.
Even so, it’s no consolation.
There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say .. "Leaving On A Jet Plane"
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